Revolution · Code; · 1986_1105_1989_0804

u sound like u understood me when ever u said find another girl who understands me..i dont know where it went to..
do u even know how i felt the slightest bit..when i could say i'm going home..kept myself quiet and walked out..did it bothered you
so much as to ask me to stay and ask wat happened?first thing you said..'next time we stay diff house uh, cuz cannot bring terri home and i cant leave terri either' did u even have the intention to try and stay with me when "terri problem arises" instead of jus say we stay diff house cuz mummy cannot take in pets..
have u ever spared a thought about my mum's health that how terri can affect her health even by its fur drop when u say such a sentence?
instead of saying like that, ask 'next time how?terri cannot move to my house'..i couldnt see that u had a strong intention to stay with me till u would persevere and solve problems instead of sayin such things..everytime u compare me and terri and the way u say it..have u ever thought how hurt i feel?like a 2nd rate personnel..2nd rated person..do u even feel the way u treat me and vice versa..the "ba dao" thing is really kicking in..it doesnt feel like something that i could joke about anymore..i dont wanna lose you yet when ever i try to keep myself alive and hang on to u, u'll never realise the things u say and do jus keeps stabbing me straight into my heart weakening my grip to us..even the use of words and hints arent working..nothing gets to u no matter how much u said u're tryin to try and change...god save me..
never mind..i'll hold on until i'm broken into pieces beyond redemption cuz i dont wanna lose you..

~ Loveless ~

mayb what i've always been tryin to say i havent been applying to myself..love myself more, try less hard, do lesser, feel lesser, ignore more and become an asshole..mayb things will be better in life..trying too hard holding on too dearly..hoping..idealing...its all useless..ppl wont feel it, wont understand it, wont help it, nor appreciate it..i need my lil peace of heaven..i wanna breakdown and ignore everything around me..i'm tired cuz no one knows it no one understands it..i'm always feeling all alone..esp when things stays long..eventually the good feeling will fade like it always does and leave me..and i'm gonna feel all alone again..


~Loveless~

i'm really tired and wearing out despite how nice it feels and looks externally..there's always an illness somewhere around inside outside everywhere..


~Loveless~

i dont know why..but i still end up coming back to whine and complain about life..havent felt comfortable these few days or rather week..both inside out..ankle still hasnt recovered..there's still a wall in our hearts..seems like the feeling between us is feeling like its stucked at that stage eversince the quarrels..why cant u understand and be reasonable enuf to know...how u talk about ur godpa bout iya give in abit..tolerating doesnt hurt..he's a old man afterall..why cant u apply the same thing to my mum?if its about family..i'm more against families that draw lines among themselves than families that dearly cling on to the relationship among eachother..u always say i'm all about myself..and i've nvr thought bout u..have u thought about..the way u care and think for me isnt the way i really feel and think?u said if u'd change for me..we both will feel tired after some time..what about every quarrel that no matter right or wrong i'm the one always gving in the doing things?wont i be tired too?i'm like always giving in and being the one to change so that u wont get tired and be urself..i know u dont stay home cuz of family problems..but mine is not exactly that same prob as urs at home..mine has a reason for me to be home..and for u to be with me home..without lines drawn or motives or biasness...why cant u understand?or u havent seen them clearly?u've set a standard or rather a wall against my family like u had to urs..but cant u see?u havent even felt them..u dont know them..u jus imagined them according to what u have experienced back then as a referrence to now..no matter what i say it jus seems to not get through to u..i'm beginning to get tired..i dont know how long i can take it anymore..but i will as long as i can cuz i chose and have loved u...



~Loveless~

yup.."warrior" brainlessly brave idiot..in simple sprained leg...pics do the talking..shoooo~!

 
ciaossu..=)


~ Loveless ~

HAHA..a stupid kid who started his work on v day..lolx..and head home dead tired..>.<
got my helmet stolen..some cheapskate idiot muz be in a rush to pick up a girl and grabbed my cheap helmet cuz he didnt bring one..
ended up i spent more than wat i earned today..HAHAHAHA..gosh this is stupid..and i can understand..V A L E N T I N E S!!=.=
stupid day..walked waltz wasted 1 hr plus to get to bike shop to buy my helm..first day of work was quite okay as jin said it is not bad as a new promoter to sell 6 sets of LCDs..*achievement achievement* =p
my official first day first time working...HAHA..wat a life..only needing to work at this point of life..>.< well, mosquitos are on the loose round my house..or isit only mine?=.= guess they're tryin to prepare enuf v day presents for their other one..LOLOLOL..lame..shooooo mosquitos..shoooo pei qi..lolx..okay jus joking cuz i'm fbored..took a nap cuz i'm dead tired and now i cant sleep..=.=
ciaosu ppl~



~ Loveless ~ gosh i didnt know how u stil managed to be the one..

i think i jus crawled out from the gates of hell..its the first time i've been so close to death unknowlingly tasted it..it's like being granted a second life..i had my goosebumps all up..
went semb played ball and went to frens house to park my bike after which we went batok to pick up another fren for supper..
after everything was over we went back to my frens house to pick up my bike..and we smelt heavy petrol smell coming from my bike..no idea why it is as we couldnt detect any leakage..
so off i went for like about 15 mins on the road and i suddenly heard chunks of metal hitting against each other...my goose bumps shot straight up to my neck i thought it was u know wat...holy mamas.. so i picked up the speed and entered SLE and sped up to 130 cuz the sound keeps following me..to CTE back home..and when i parked down my bike i realised..the sound came from my wheels..and i saw the calipers of my wheel plate dangling from my bike..that chunk of metal was hanging beside my wheel all along when i was riding at 130..omg..my goosebumps shot up even more!!it feels like..HOW THE HELL DID I MANAGED TO FGET HOME?!?!?!am i really alive?! why didnt that chunk of metal get caught in between the wheels?i made so many turns and that chunk of thing didnt get caught in between!!!gosh..thank wat ever that didnt let me die..imagine having the wheel jammed by that chunk of metal at the speed of 130..180..360..720..1080 degrees i might me flying off to.. i really fdont kknow wat to say..gosh.i'm alive..

saw this pic online..

added colors to it jus like how i wanna add colors to your life..
but guess..it's jus my..
ciaos..

~ Loveless ~

boo yo!i'm back to blog!!! and FIRST ISSUE OF THIS POST!!!on the way back home ANG ENG SANG RAMMED DOWN A METAL DUSTBIN!!!HAHAHAHAHAHAH...OMG OMG OMG!!i realised ah bu is a bull dozer!nv the bin nv fall she also dont know she hit something..i said..see there used to be a bridge to bring us to citylink...haha!and she..ohhhh...nv see where she walked!!goodness!!hehehe..

oh oh...after school went out with charlene and ang eng sang for lunch at marina square..hmmm..wats the restraunt name again?forgot it..hahaha..but its a japanese restraunt!!suuuuper niceeee...then we went to bowl...heeheee..first two idiots scored a zero for the first try...hahahahah....then then we went shopping after the game!!cool shit la...so many shops with sales going on. seems everry where is having 50% and above off..=DD bought a buffalo david bitton jeans costing $208 for just $58!!!=DDDD cheap shitteeee!!let the photos do the rest..=)


and me love...buffalo david!!





thats all folks!ciaos and take care!!

~ Loveless ~

well...life has been uneventful and peaceful which is why i haven been updating this neglected journal..hahah..its good too feel peaceful..
i'm feeling kinda comfortable ignoring everything..bleahs~
quitted games i guessed?and i really had nth to do!!godddaaamit!!jus like how depressed my other quitted 'game mates' were...hahaha..
wad shld i do online?lol..
mayb i'll update more often??haha..but uneventful life like mine doesnt have much to update about..gonna bore the spiders thats gonna spin around my web..lolx
heartless peeps who read this!u know wat i meant!!LOL
anyways..ciaos again!!see u!hmmm...mayb next event?haha

~ Loveless ~ mayb i really still L u..someone save me..i'm in deep shit..will u end my pain?

things are so diff..it aint easy to be caught in between..mayb the best of both worlds are jus to satisfy human's fantasy..i tried asking to be there yet they wanted here..i tried telling them there and they said there's nothing good..tried to settle things but i got things worst..damn..i tried to leave to find u but the response is everyone knows waat the shit i'm saying yo..wat in the hell shld i do..dont ask me..i wanna jus sleep sleep sleep...hopefully its not me..i jus felt bad..

gosh couldnt believe it..the two LG phones i bought had so much probs..first is slide prob, next is SD reader prob..and after servicing...shitteeee...they made the whole phone spoilt!cant even turn on the power!!goodnesss...took 1 1/2 weeks to get everything done..and it feels soooo good to have some technology of my age!!unlike the alternate phone i was using..it was bloody torturous..bulky.thick...stiff buttons...slow processing..omg..low memory..outdated ringtones..wow!!!!i felt so good today when my phone came back from servicing!!=DD

but lucky...i didnt have to pick up my phone..cuz they delivered it to my door step early in the morning!!=DD
but i lost alot of contacts that're saved into the phone..=((
AND!!!i lost the backup copy i wrote in one of my notebooks..=((

this week is a boring week..

Ciaos!!

~ Loveless ~